It Really is Winter

I know that it is  JANUARY. I realize that.


But.....This is Oklahoma.


It's not supposed to be gray skied EVERY day. We are supposed to have a nice warm day of about 70degrees every so often.


But this every day of sprinkles and rain. We are not supposed to have days that don't get over 33degrees.


I think those guys who keep spouting about GLOBAY WARMING need to come to Oklahoma and bring us a little of that warm for just a day or two.

LED and iphone

I have an iPhone. That’s not really unusual these days. A lot of people have them.
One thing I don’t like is the stupid music on the games I play on the phone. Really stupid music. So I turn off the sound so it won’t make me climb a tree!!
I’ve been looking for months for the button that is pushed in order to make the LED light and vibrate works when the phone alerts me.
Just a few minutes ago I found it hiding in Settings under Accessibility at the bottom of the list.
Just a heads up
If you’re looking for that way to still be able to know some one is calling or a text has gotten through without all the awful music playing in the background--now you know

Today is a Beautiful day

I know that’s it’s only 40 degrees. I know that the sun is covered with cloud but today is beautiful. 

It's Been a Long Time

It has been way too many months since I wrote anything, except the book. My husband passed on August 5, 2017, and since then I have been correlating and writing a book about how God prepared me to be his caregiver when he got the dementia.

 I know that some of you will not understand that, and that's ok as this blog is about my life.

Jerry was a farm kid. Always lived in the same community. He had 12 kids he went to school with from the first grade until they all graduated High school.
I envied him that, because I went to 26 schools and remember just a few of the people that I went to school and if it weren't for Facebook I would know nothing of them still.

I got the book finished just last Monday . It was as if a boulder had come off my shoulders. I typed what He told me too and I know it's what needed to be said.

On the first page...
Because of this adventure, Jerry and I are on, I have found out that what I learned and went through as a child made me into who I am now.

Another couple paragraphs and this...
How did all this become me? How does it combine itself into the confident person who takes care of Jerry during his good days and bad? It's been an awesome seventy-five years.

There will be more little snippets of the book maybe. If it fits into that days ramblings.

Ramblings like this--Today it is cold. By the middle of the week it's supposed to in the mid 60s. And that's a lot better that 40 and below.

More Later, Linda

Life prepares us!

In the midst of all that is going on I find myself thankful for all that have happened in my life. 

The main thing I learned to do was find humor in everything. After a good long look at happenings, I realized that the clown in me is the reason that Jerry is still content and happy. 

Top to bottom,

Sparkee (Deb), Merree Berree (Nancy),

Cindee(Cindy), Dottee (me) and George E (Andrew). 

Being able to find joy in putting a rope on the floor and walking in it and telling the audience that I was "online". Hearing their joy. And being able to bring out that joy for Jerry is AWESOME!!

Things to look for

If I had been used to looking for differences I would have known what was happening. 

2004, Jerry was in the Halliburton yard working and the ladies called to ask if he was ok. It seems he was walking slower than the other guy. They had just been teasing him that the speed limit was 15 in the yard. A week later he's walking slow. 

Symptom? Maybe. 

About the same time I realized he needed help navigating around big cities. So I became navigator. Sometimes I told him wrong but we always made it to where we were going. 

He got picky about his food. All of a sudden he didn't want bacon, he still only  eats like one strip. 

He became more of a homebody. Didn't want to go to the movies or just a Sunday afternoon ride. 

Where theses happenings signs for me to keep in my heart? Signs that it really might be Alzheimer's.

I don't know. 

But probably. 

I'm just gonna say it--Alzheimer's.

For the last 13 years I have seen this coming. The first thing I noticed was during the drive to his moms in 2003. We had made the same roads from the time we moved to Oklahoma in 1962. That's what--41 years. On the transition road from Ft. Worth to Dallas we got on this particular strip and he says "I've never been on this road". I made the mistake of saying yes we have. He got all mad. 

Ummmm????

Is this Alzheimer's. ??

Other things cropped up. 

He retired, and then I got of a chance to really see the decline. 

Did I acknowledge the signs.

No I didn't. I just ignored them. 

But this disease doesn't stop, slow down or go away.

Do I like it? 

NOT!!